I recently got hold of some of my old clothes that I’d left behind in my old house, including a large number of socks. When I moved to where I am now, I only had a suitcase of clothes, and it was summer, so I only had a few pairs. In a way, that was a liberation too – I decided that I didn’t *have* to wear socks all the time!
But then winter came, and I got a job standing up for long periods of time in work shoes, so I needed to buy socks. And now I had all these old ones too and I thought, well I’ll keep them because socks wear out, and it’ll save me having to buy any for years. There was not enough room in my underwear drawer, so I moved things and had a whole drawer full of socks. Actually, a whole drawer STUFFED with socks. When I opened the drawer, it was difficult to shut it again.
Then I was talking to someone about abundance.
So yesterday morning I emptied out that drawer of socks, and looked at them – what message to the universe am I giving by having all these? The message is that I don’t trust that I’ll be able to afford to buy new ones when I need them. The message is that I am insecure, and need to surround myself with things to protect me.
So I organized them, and now I have sufficient socks for my current needs, and the rest – and there are a LOT of them – are being given away: someone else may benefit from the excess that I don’t need.
And this seems to me to be emblematic of the way I can, and have, lived my life. I can try to control everything and make sure that “I have enough”. I can try to ensure that every eventuality is covered, that all my plans are in place. But I know what happens when I live like this – I end up discontented.
The thing is, there is NEVER enough; not enough money, enough food, enough booze – not enough anything. Things don’t work out like I plan and so I try to make better plans. The things I have don’t make me happy, so I need to get more things.
I also know what it’s like when I make room for abundance in my life. When I give up trying to manage the outcomes, and just look after the here and now, my life opens up and I get to appreciate all the great things in it.
Where I am right now is an absolutely wonderful place, but it’s not where I want to be forever. No, I’ll re-phrase that – where I am right now is an absolutely wonderful place, AND it’s not where I want to be forever. Yesterday, I threw out some things, and now have space in my wardrobe: every day I can throw out old ideas, and leave space in my life for the abundance that life gives me.
When I live each day as it comes, I can enjoy life as it happens, and every moment can be magical.